“Emily, Will you, um, marry me?”
“No. What do you mean ‘will you, um, marry me?’ I haven’t seen you in weeks. You don’t look happy or excited at the prospect of our marriage. You’re asking me to give up my freedom, my joie de vivre for an institution that fails as often as it succeeds? And why should I marry you anyway? I mean, why do you wanna marry me? Besides some bourgeois desire to fulfil an ideal that society embeds in us from an early age to promote a consumer capitalist agenda?”
“Oh! Oh, my God.”
“You should’ve just got on your knees”
“Just shut up! Here… I wanna marry you because you’re the first person I wanna look at when I wake up in the morning, and the only one I wanna kiss goodnight. Because the first time that I saw these hands, I couldn’t imagine not being able to hold them. But mainly, when you love someone as much as I love you, getting married is the only thing left to do. So, will you, um, marry me?”
I think this has got to be my favorite photo of us. I’m so happy I’m home cause I get to see you everyday or at least know that if i wanted to, i could see you tmr.
This is too soon. I don’t want to grow up just yet. I don’t want to make this decision just yet..
Let myself slide for the past few days. It’s been difficult trying to get back to working out when I’m busy getting all my assignments done and studying for the stupid quiz for history. It completely slipped my mind that I had the comprehension for history and managed to fuck it up. LULZ. story of my life i guess. OH WELLL. It’s two more week till I’m back home. I cant wait. I’ve planned all the things that I’m going to do when you’re too busy for me. Reading, Running, and working out. It’s time to get fit. ^^
It’s been amazing these past few days. I’m very exhausted but very happy. hehe went for the Kooloobong halloween night and had loads of fun. I went as a pilot hehe.
So much rushing and prep for the party but we had so much fun! ^^
Her makeup is so gorgeous and her hair was so colourful!! A true mermaid!
My absolute favourite of the night. Such dedication. i loved it!!! haha future halloween outfit! for sure.
Met jesus! he offered us wine and bread. LOL. he was hilarious.
Are popes allowed to drink? HAHA
Funny masks from the photobooth set!
Her Royal Highness. I curtseyed and asked for a photo hehe. After which he told me “Her Royal Highness needs to take a piss now and skipped off. LOLOL”
New friends who were sitting at our table! Emily, Allie and Josephine ^^ the paint was amazing. Josephine covered the entire top part of her body with paint! Wow…. honestly, amazing.
The lovely ladies with me. Thank you so much for inviting me. I had so much fun!
The two girls that got me through my entire semester here. ^^
Im so tired from being in the library today but! I will chose to work out! work work work!!!
I almost wanted to give up and not work out today but i decided to just go with it. There’s no use to creating a schedule and giving up on it half way. I’m so determined to finish Insanity. All two and a half months of it.
I SHALL. Warrior mode on! Work out and study hard! kelly’s been an amazing inspiration for me. If she can do it, so can I! ^^
I’ve been watching Supernatural lately and needless to say, I’ve been having constant nightmares. It’s not the smartest choice but it’s such a good show I cant bear to stop. I’ve been sleeping with the bible and it does comfort me. And your cross as well. ^^
Assignments have been piling up. Readings are piling up. Weekly assignments are piling up. I’m so stressed but I’ve been more… zen of late. Taking things as they come and trying to do as much as can. 4 assignments and one major exam due next week. Saying lots of prayers to ask for the patience to sit down and do my work.
And, on top of that. i’ve started insanity! it’s killing me but i’m determined to make it worth it. The no carb diet has proved to be useless. So I’m going to make it especially difficult but adding in insanity hopefully will help me lose weight faster. *HOO HAA!*
Went swimming with liz yesterday. Being such a fucking beauty queen wanna-be, i didnt remove my makeup so i didnt dunk my head in the water. HAHA. By the way, it’s a mother bitch trying to swim with my face above the water. Doggy paddle/froggy style is a bitch to do. LOLOL. oh well. hopefully i can swim with liz again soon! ^^
And. It was daddy’s birthday yesterday. It was really upsetting to be so far away during this celebration. ): I miss my mom and my dad so much. It really does suck that I couldn’t be there. So incapable of saying anything other than the fact that it SUCKS.
Isn’t my daddy just the most handsome man? 😀 hehe
it was porpor’s birthday the day before. Another celebration that I couldn’t be there for. It’s horrible thing to say but I really do have to treasure every minute, my birthday that she has. She’s gotten so weak recently and looks so physically weak and drained. I miss you porpor, I’ll come home to visit soon. i promise. xx
p.s. i love you and i miss you, boo. au revoir. a bientôt.
Supposed to be working out today, but i’m either (a) too exhausted (from what I have no idea) or (b) too fucking lazy. I’ve been planted on the couch for the past 12 hours. Woke up, made breakfast, had breakfast, and went to sleep til 2. And i’ve been doing nothing for the next 7 hours that I’ve been awake….
Insanity has left me in pain. & I ate biscuits today. I’m sure I’m supposed to feel like crap about myself. I still have time to exercise. but I’ve decided i’m just gna say fuck it and sleep. Life is too tiring….
It has always been my habit, ever since junior high school, to ask that question:
“What are you thinking?”
It is always an act of desperation, and I keep on asking, even though I know it will never work the way I want it to.